Notes for Faith Renae Rasberry:|
On November 15, 1995, Faith decided to end her life. Why? I want truly ever know until I join her in heaven. My heart is so heavy with pain and confusion. She had so much going for her. She was bright, beautiful and loving. So many, many people have come to us and told us what a positive impact she had on their lives. People she worked with, played with and just shared her time with.
She was 26 years old and she had packed a lot of living in those 26 years. Yes, she had her problems. She had her first rejection as a two year old when her father decided that he could not handle the responsibilities of a family. My mother, step-father, and husband went to Virginia to get Faith and her mother and sister and bring them back to Durham. At that time Faith's mother was expecting a child. Faith's brother Jeff was born later that year. She loved her family very much. She didn't always agree with them and sometimes her disagreements were very hard on herself and others. As with all children of divorced parents, they have strong feelings of rejection. They tend to blame themselves for their parents break-up, and Faith had her share of those feelings. I'm not sure if Faith ever came to terms with those feelings, at times she could be very hard on herself.
She had many accomplishments. She was a great student in school, made good grades, had great social skills and was well liked by her teachers and classmates. She went on to college, first at East Carolina in Greenville and then transferred to UNC-Chapel Hill and graduated with honors. She wanted so much to work in the field of Human Resources and she would have been great. She was working with Glaxo-Wellcome in the Bio Science Support group. It was not what she wanted to do for the the rest of her life, but she had plans to continue her education and get her master's degree and move into Human Resources, and she would have succeeded!
Faith had many people who loved her. Her Uncle Gary loved her as if she were his very own. Early in life he called her "Grunt" because she grunted for everything and she was so small, and we gave her what she wanted. Uncle Gary was the one constant male in her life that she knew she could always come to. He didn't always give her the responses she wanted, because he didn't always agree with her. Later her mother remarried, and her step-father, Ed Sharpe loved her as his own. She loved and respected both of these men in her life. She knew she could count on them. She had several young men in her life that would have given her the moon if they could. Sadly her choice of a soul mate did not deserve her love. He rejected her and the pain was too much. She thought she could change his mind by becoming a person that she wasn't. Even with all that sacrifice he still rejected her. After talking with his mother on the evening of November 15, 1995 and learning that he had been seeing another woman, and plan to wed, she left the house and drove to quite place and placed a gun to her head and ended her life. During those hours Faith was not the Faith we knew and loved. She was not in full control of herself, if she had been she would not have done that. She never called out, she did not leave a note, she just wanted the pain to go away.
She will always have a very special place in our hearts, we miss her very much. Gary will not talk about her very much. I think that it bothers him a great deal that she did not come to him as she had always done in the pass. I think she new that this was one problem that he could not change. We love you Faith.